Thirty-three

June 29th, 2008

In eleven hours from this writing will be my birthday.  Another year, never younger but always getting better!  Everytime i look at the mirror I see a girl still.  I am never kidding when I say I feel that I’m still 21, but as of this morning, I looked really hard and saw a woman.  I actually had that realization when we had our picture taken for our office’s Org Chart last Satuday.  I looked so different from my picture taken just a year ago. 

The face that looked back at me is no longer a young Lenore but a woman who has for the past year have learned so much.  Gone is the naive and not a care in the world look.  I used to have this happy shining face in my pictures.  This time I see in my face and in my eyes a secret known only to me.  It is the kind of secret that projects an old soul within.  My learning is now stamped all over my face and I’m proud of it.

I guess I won’t be forever young, after all.  I am now officially an old soul who has acquired so many over the years.  And to date I’m proudest of the fact that I am mother to three wonderful kids who make my life so much better and a whole lot meaningful.

I’d like to feature here a song from Smashing Pumpkins called Thirty-three. 
Well I guess you’ll figure just why.



Speak to me in a language I can hear
Humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I can’t be late, supper’s waiting on the table
Tomorrow’s just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know I’ll make it, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I’ve journeyed here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I’m ready to return
I’ll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
Tomorrow’s just an excuse
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you

I Will

June 17th, 2008

Been listening to The Beatles lately.  In one of our weekend dates (with my hubby) i came across this MP3 of all their songs at the night market.  Being a child of a hardcore Beatles’ fan, I, without hesitation, bought it.  As their songs play, i’m recalling younger days spent lazily in our living room with my father strumming his guitar, me with the melodion  and my mother plus siblings jamming to their tunes. Life was simple then and so wonderful.  Little gems of memories carved deeply in my heart.

Here is their song "I Will" which was featured in a remake movie starring Warren Beatty and his real wife (off screen) Annette Benning  - not sure with the spelling and forgot the title of the movie.  The story was about two strangers who met and were greatly attracted toward each other.  Their connection was undeniable but felt it was wrong as each were already attached to somebody else.  As they felt they’re into something real the guy suggested they meet at a predetermined date at the Empire State Building. If they both showed up then…lalalala…you’ll just have to watch it.  The movie was quite a hit - so was the original!

Anyway, this song was sung by the lead lady’s students.  Very nice effect..this song is just so…(sigh)

Who knows how long I’ve loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to–I will.

For if I ever saw you
I didn’t catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we’re together
Love you when we’re apart.

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
How you know I will
I will.

Bonus: here’s the link to youtube

Starting Over

June 6th, 2008

After the debris has settled there’s only one thing to do…start over.

After recovering from shock and heartache one must learn to forgive.  And even if it seems impossible, one must strive to learn to forget.  If not, a person will find it hard to recover and ultimately let go.  If we hold on to our grievances we will never see through our ill feelings.  It will only unnecessarily prolong our agony.

Healing does take time.  It may seem painstakingly slow but it does heal all wounds.  But first you must truly forgive to be able to forget.

Fidelity

June 4th, 2008

I never love nobody fully

Always one foot on the ground

And by protecting my heart truly

I got lost in the sound

I hear in my mind all these voices

I hear in my mind all these words

I hear in my mind all these music

And it breaks my heart

And it breaks my heart…

Suppose I never ever met you

Suppose we never fell in love

Suppose I never ever let you

Kiss me so sweet and so soft

Suppose I never ever saw you

Suppose you never ever call

Suppose I kept on singing love songs

Just to break my own fall

Just to break my fall…

All my friends say that

"Of course, I’ts gonna get better…"

I never love nobody fully

Always one foot on the ground

And by protecting my heart truly

I got lost in the sound

I hear in my mind all these voices

I hear in my mind all these words

I hear in my mind all these music

And it breaks my heart…

I hear in my mind all of these voices

I hear in my mind all of these words

I hear in my mind all of these music

And it breaks my heart…

CAREFUL WHERE YOU STAND by Coldplay

June 4th, 2008

I feel safe

I feel warm when you’re here

When I do no wrong

I am cured

when I’m by your side

I’m alright, alright

I am safe

when I am with you

And I feel warm

if you want me to

I am cured

when I’m by your side

I’m alright

Careful where you stand

Careful where you lay your head

It’s true we’re always looking out for one another

I feel safe

when I am with you

I feel warm

when you want me to

I am cured when you are around

I’m alright

Careful where you stand

Careful where you lay your head

It’s true we’re always looking out for one another

So I like a quiet time please

Yeah, I like a quiet time

Careful where you stand

Now, careful where you stand.