“You are my life now”
“Oh, really? For how long, dya think?!”
Caught the Twilight (movie) first day it ran in movie theaters here in CDO. Just like when i first read the book, i could not make up my mind whether I liked it or not. Again, just like how I reacted to the written form of the story, I could not relate to the main characters’ declarations of love and affection toward each other. So very “teeny”.
Though a bit of the audience gasped and sighed (especially when the Cullens first came into the scene), I just felt FLAT. Years of being in a relationship tends to make one jaded. No, of course not unromantic, just realistic. Maturity does that to you. “Words!”, I kept thinking, “Words, just words. Loving someone is so much easier said than done.” I probably couldn’t handle a partner as over-protective and possessive as Edward anyway. I don’t fall for such things. In time, he will have bored me to death. Now I wonder how Bella settled for that too. I thought she didn’t want people hovering over her. Well, isn’t that exactly what Edward was doing?!
In the whole, I think the movie is forgettable. At least in the book my imagination of how beautiful the vampires are intrigued me. As to the casting, well I thought hollywood could have done better. The vampires aren’t as nearly as beautiful as they were painted in the book. Sadly they are nowhere near as handsome and beautiful as I see them in my head. I know certain people who could have done the characters justice. Most disappointing is Jasper. He was supposed to be more alert - and something, well just more! In the movie he just looked STUPID!
Hey, Twilight fans out there, this is just my opinion, okay? I am as much a fan as any of you. I just feel they could have selected a stronger pool of actors to do the part.
Movies | Comment (0)Deceiving Heart
The things that make a person unclean
Mark 7:14-23
Then Jesus called the crowd to him once more and said to them, “Listen to me, all of you, and understand.There is nothing that goes into you from the outside that will make you ritually unclean.Rather, it is what comes out of you that makes you unclean.”
When he left the crowd and went into the house, his disciples asked him to explain this saying.“You are no more intelligent than the others,” Jesus said to them.“Don’t you understand?Nothing that goes into you from the outside can really make you unclean, because it does not go into your heart but into your stomach and then goes on out of the body.” (In saying this, Jesus declared that all foods are fit to be eaten.)
And he went on to say, “It is what comes out of you that makes you unclean.For from the inside, from your heart, come the evil ideas which lead you to do immoral things, to rob, kill, commit adultery, be greedy, and do all sorts of evil things; deceit, indecency, jealousy, slander, pride, and folly – all these evil things come from inside you and make you unclean.”
All these years I trusted my heart in making important decisions.It is in the rationalization that if it makes me feel good then it must be the right way.I guess this one is saying –not everything!Perhaps it is wise to discern first the things we desire before seeking them out.That is going to be a hurdle because I know what the heart screams can be quite difficult to silence.The clamor of the heart can be — most of the time– hard to ignore.Happiness and misery hang on the opposite sides of the balance.But is the end that promises bliss really the right way?Or is it the one that requires self denial?
I guess I’ll just have to count on good old “Faith”.Without divine inspiration, how lost can one ever get?I wonder.
Books | Comment (0)Decode by Paramore
This is the first track I came across the Twilight website. I like the heaviness in the tune. Just something to mark another obsession. Check out Decode on Youtube.
Music | Comment (1)How can I decide what’s right
When you’re clouding up my mind?
I can’t win your losing fight
All the time.Not gonna ever own what’s mine
When you’re always taking sides?
But you won’t take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it’s hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can’t see
What kind of man that you are,
If you’re a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I’m screaming, “I love you so.”)
On my own.
(My thoughts you can’t decode)How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.
Fickleminded Obsession
If I am to capture my person into a single word, that would be FICKLE.
I change my mind faster than I take my my breath. When I breathe out I strongly feel about doing something, but then even before I breathe in I am onto something entirely different. Nah, you got me, I’m exaggerating a bit. Of course no one can be that fickle, now is there?!
But I’m not kidding about being fickle. Though I have a general direction where I steer my every single day towards, on that path I keep twisting, turning, double-back, then again forward, leading to my ultimate destination. If that made you dizzy, just imagine if you were in my shoes. Still I can’t seem to help myself.
It could be construed as being thorough, the way I (over)analyze my every move and all the possible outcomes (consequences). To be completely honest, i admit that i might be psychotic (ha,ha). So much for being OC! I really don’t understand how I had once been called “obsessive”.
Can one really be obsessive and fickle at the same time? If, yes, that person would be me. I wonder how in psychology they call people like myself (hmmm).
Part of being fickle I guess is getting lost in the process. Is that where I am right now, possibly the reason why I’m not making any sense at all? It’s like being stuck in a black hole. I want to do so many at the same time just to see how things work out but it is impossible to do contradictory ideas in one move. Besides I can only do so much. I’m stretching myself out too thin I hope I don’t break (really hope not).
They say a reward awaits at the end of every difficulty - I might as well believe. There shall be clarity, if only I could make up my mind and stick to it.
On Self | Comment (0)