Birthday (Last) Request
Slow down,
Lie down,
Remember it’s just you and me.
Don’t sell out,
bow out,
Remember how this used to be.
I just want you closer,
Is that alright?
Baby let’s get closer tonight
[chorus:]
Grant my last request,
And just let me hold you.
Don’t shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.
Sure I can accept that we’re going nowhere,
But one last time let’s go there,
Lay down beside me Oh,
I’ve found, that I’m bound
To wander down that one way road.
And I realise all about your lies
But I’m no wiser than the fool I was before.
I just want you closer,
Is that alright?
Baby let’s get closer tonight
[chorus]
Oh, baby, baby, baby,
Tell me how can,
how can this be wrong?
[chorus x2]
Yeah, lay down beside me.
One last time let’s go there,
Lay down beside me
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Lenore’s Heart
got a text message from a friend earlier who worried about my well being. i was touched by her promise to be there for me, whether i admit or not that i am hurting. she’s so cute. i find her really amusing. when any of our friends shared a problem expect her to cry even before the one concerned does!
friends like these are precious. they are rare and hard to find, thus a treasure to keep.
this is one quality that i don’t have. i was never thoughtful even with the people i love. i guess i’m too self indulgent (selfish). i grew up fighting for myself. always striving to get what i want and to reach where i wanted to be. i have a focused determination that sometimes I forget there are people around me.
sometimes i feel bad that i can’t be as nice, as sweet and as loving. i kick myself a lot for this. but i have realized i can’t be too hard on myself either. i wouldn’t be where i am now if i didn’t become what i am today.
i wasn’t always like this though, just that my life is not an easy road to take. i have cried, lost, conquered and mastered the will to carry on even when sometimes i wished i could just blink myself to oblivion. i still feel that occassionally - well, okay, a lot! over the years, i had to change - many times over - just to be strong. to endure whatever comes my way. i have to. i cannot allow myself to be swallowed up by my heartaches and disappointments. a lot of people depend on me. i cannot allow them to see me in a moment of weakness lest they’d think of themselves my burden. as a price, i have lost a little tenderness. it is sad but in order to gain one thing, something must be let go. in lenore’s discipline, what i have lost i will never try to seek out again.
so yous see, when someone shows me an act of kindness that i don’t usually get, it goes a long way. it touches my heart because they’d done something either i don’t do or never got from anyone else. i find it awkward to react or say something nice in return but be sure that I am touched. and once it reaches my heart - good or bad alike- I never forget.
Uncategorized | Comment (0)Horizon
always…always it has to be from afar. looking onto the distance. have only courage when an expanse of space guarantees its place in between.
still i look on hoping someday i’d be able to at least touch. to have the strength to reach out. to feel. to be ceartain that you are real.
so i wait. i must wait. there’s nothing more to do other than wait.
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